Day 182 has come and gone and with it came an emotional few days – something I hadn’t prepared myself for.
I’m on a week off spending it decorating my daughters room (something she has been visualizing since she first read The Secret last year when I did), taking time to let everything that’s happened sink in and perhaps go blonde!
But I didn’t want to let the week pass without checking in especially because last night something extraordinary and amazing happened.
Like I said it’s been emotional, not only that I’ve had some moments that I really didn’t feel like myself, not the way I’ve come to be now but much more like the way I felt last December.
This was unsettling and much as I tried to stay calm and not panic that some sort of rebound was heading my way it wasn’t a good way to feel.
I mentioned in a Facebook post that through tears one evening I said “thank you for this feeling” because I always know that something good will follow even if I can’t see it yet. Something I was reminded off during a meditation when Oprah said Dr Maya Angelou told her “there is a rainbow in every cloud and to say thank you for it”
I continued in an up down fashion following my rules but at one moment last night felt full of sadness as if the weight of the world was on my shoulders, my mind was busy and I felt overwhelmed by everything. All I’ve done so far and all I plan to do.
Then I thought about how everything is exactly as it is meant to be and how feeling this way was a reminder to me of how far I’ve come because it used to be how I felt every day. As I went to say goodnight to the children it was as if a weight was lifted, I felt I could have floated up the stairs and I was filled with the deepest sense of gratitude and calm.
I have experienced moments like this throughout the last 182 days but this was intense and beyond anything I had felt before. A smile spread across my face and I just knew that everything is exactly as it is meant to be and I am ready for the next step.
One year ago I read The Secret www.thesecret.tv Six months ago I began this experiment and every day I’m grateful, because it inspired this journey and it's a journey that has transformed my life.
Thank you to everyone for following and being a part of this journey (the blog will be back next week). I get so many messages of support and asking questions about this so I decided to have a live Q&A on my Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/secretexperiment
Date: Saturday 15th August (time to be confirmed)