Day 120 of 182
Wednesday 3rd June
As far as health, love and happiness is concerned my account is overflowing- the same cannot be said about my Bank account but today marks the day that is going to change. Because today I am going to begin using the exact same techniques that I used to change the way I felt about myself 120 days ago to bring Financial Abundance and Prosperity into my life.
In my experience what we focus on is what we get. When we focus on feeling good and choosing the positive over negative we feel better -have a happier day. That when something goes wrong & we focus more on that than the good in our lives more things seem to go wrong- but that we have the ability always to change our feelings to good feelings and in doing so more good comes our way.
This is called the Law of Attraction and it has been the basis of this 182 day experiment which has without a shadow of a doubt been an enormous success.
I am living a different life and I love it. By focusing on what I wanted the way I wanted to live my life rather than putting all my energy into thinking about the symptoms of my Eating Disorder & anxiety, by following each of my 10 rules small things that all made me feel good inside my life has been transformed. I've seen it work in the reverse when I have written blogs that talk a lot about past negative behaviors or talk about a 'bad' day I feel worse. When someone is going through a difficult time it is definitely more beneficial to talk about the positive outcome desired than going over the negative. I have no desire to bitch, moan or gossip- this is not because I am a perfect human being but because it drains me and my emotions will reflect the fact that I am not following the path I want to be on. When I do feel negativity rather than dissect it and discuss it I do my absolute best to find something positive to think about instead. At first this was harder now it happens naturally and also I have a "negativity" radar the minute it enters into thoughts or conversations because I am so used to feeling brilliant most of the time I notice it quickly.
So my life must be sorted now I have all this sussed out?
Not quite. The one area I struggle with is money.
A lack of money has always caused me anxiety and now that I know even more strongly that focusing on what we 'lack' brings more of that something I want to deal with and change over the next 62 days of this experiment. Starting today.
This morning I woke feeling good, beautiful blue sky, wrote on my gratitude list, chatted with the kids but as I spent my last €10 on petrol that unpleasant flutter of anxiety crept in and thoughts of bills and upcoming events that I didn't have the money for began to flood into my mind and more negative feelings of doubt crept in (How would I pay my tax bill? Pay for a family holiday? California in August when you only have €10 Hannah???) and all I could think of was not having enough. To be honest I felt like crawling into bed.
And that's when I decided I had to make a conscious effort to change the way I feel about money- I've changed the way I feel about myself after a lifetime of negative thoughts so I can definitely do this.
The good that is in my life now is immeasurable- last night my heart swelled with pride when Jessica read me a passage from The Teen Secret written by a girl who's Mother had suffered from an Eating Disorder and the importance of seeing the good and beauty in ourselves. If I had carried on as I was our family would have been broken by now but I took control and embraced the Power we all have inside of us to cancel out negativity with Love and Gratitude. This is priceless and far more important than money this I know of course, but I also know that there is nothing wrong with wanting money there are plenty of amazing experience's that financial prosperity open doors to. And I want to open those doors for me, my family and others.
First things first into the moment it's no good thinking of things yet to happen when all I know I have for sure is now. Fretting about bills won't get them paid.
Then it's time to start thinking abundance. Every day I am now saying to myself (sometimes more than once)...
"I have decided to focus on financial prosperity and all the abundance that is possible . Because I know that what I think about I bring about,abundance will come."
Maybe it sounds cuckoo but it's the financial version of me smiling at my reflection taking something I could only see negativity in and turning it into something beautiful.
Secondly I'm letting go of trying to control exactly how it will happen. In my experience when I think of the positive outcome & let go of the how's & whys I get the outcome I wanted but always in the most unexpected way.
"When you focus on lack and scarcity and what you don't have, you fuss about it with your family, you discuss it with your friends, you tell your children that you don't have enough-"We don't have enough for that, we can't afford that"- then you'll never be able to afford it, because you begin to attract more of what you don't have. If you want abundance, if you want prosperity, then focus on abundance. Focus on prosperity."
Lisa Nichols -The Secret
Bring it on. Wow just writing this has made me feel brilliant. Right here now I am grateful for all that I have and all that is on it's way to me. Here's to abundance.
Picture is of dollars because it's my dream to live in California and Mullingar. xxx