Friday, 10 April 2015

Day 66 of 182. Life can be so hard, but it can be beautiful.

Day 66 of 182


10th April


Today has been a lovely day. Yes the blue sky is a wonderful thing to see, but it’s so much more than that, it’s a feeling deep down.

It seems lately as if by clearing out all the emotional “baggage” I was dragging around, letting go of fear, guilt, anger and frustration I am experiencing emotions on a deeper level than I had before.

Of course I still have times when I’m feel all of the above as you will know from reading the blog, but I am able to let go of them.

Walking home today I felt so content and grateful for the life I life, the place I live and the people who are in it.

There is so much I want to do, places I want to go. All things that I know are going to happen. It’s exciting and sometimes I get shocks running through my body when I think of it all.

Sitting here now at our kitchen table, listening to Paloma Faith
 as the album finished and the pause came all I hear is my fingers clicking on the keys, the sound of the garden, birds, distant traffic and lawnmowers. Seeing a shock of yellow daffodils in the corner of my eye. 
I feel so happy. A calm and relaxed happiness. A peace.

Having experienced a place and time in my life very different from this, I am truly grateful for it and feel that I have been given such a gift.

A gift that I want to share with anyone who needs it,  I think we all do sometimes. Hope. It can be hard to find when you are lost but keep looking and you will find it.