Thursday, 26 March 2015

Day 51 of 182. 51 days, 10 rules & my life is forever changed. Time to let it sink in.


Day 51 of 182


Thursday 26th March


I made a decision this week to take a step back, to pause and reflect on all that has happened in the last 50 days.

The effects on my life so far from following the 10 daily rules have been monumental.

So much so that I don’t think I had allowed myself the time to absorb it. To soak it up, enjoy it and be grateful.

 I am a go getter, I thrive on moving forward, on reaching the next goal and all of a sudden I realised that I was getting caught up in the excitement of what the future holds and in danger of losing sight of what is important to me now.

Throughout this process many people have said to me,” keep it up Hannah and stay true to yourself”

Wise words, and having finally after a lot of years, discovered what “true to myself” is and believing I am as I am enough, I want to stay.


I'm more eager than ever to share my story, because I know how it feels to be stuck. In a dark, sad lonely place, to wonder is this all there is, to be filled with panic, anxiety and anger, to wish that I could fall asleep and not wake up.

To Now.

A whole new world has been revealed,I know that I will always be learning that this is just the tip of the iceberg of how good life can be, but that the controller of how I experience every second of my life is not external circumstances but me and my feelings.
I am now excited by the simplest of things, seeing beauty in the most ordinary and feeling love for others and myself like never before.
 I want this life, my life and as I write this, wow I am grateful for every bit of it.
All that has gone before, all that is now and all that is to come.

 
Because I know there are many people in this world feeling like I did, and because I know this has made a difference to people already, it's hard sometimes not to be impatient. I'm full to bursting with all that I want to share.

I tweeted this morning @_Hannahlilly like my mini blog only 140 characters allowed.


“I want so much to help others but need to remember no hurry and to stay fully present. What is right will happen.”

 

And it will, it is already happening. I know I am on the right path and I'm feeding the good wolf.

I'm posting it again because I think one of the most beautiful things I have ever read and sums up perfectly my intention when I wrote my 10 rules and began this 51 days ago.

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me” he said to the boy “It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil-he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego”

He continued “The other is good-he is joy, peace, love hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is inside you –and inside every other person too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed”

Cherokee Legend

 

 

 

 

 

 

Today I'm posting this Cherokee legend, I think it is one of the most beautiful things I've ever read and it sums it up completely what I wanted to do when I first dreamt up this 6 month "experiment".

"An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me” he said to the boy “It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves. One is evil-he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego”

He continued “The other is good-he is joy, peace, love hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is inside you –and inside every other person too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?” The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed”

Taken from Thrive by Arianna Huffington