Friday 27th February
24 days in. I can’t quite believe it.
I am finding the process of sitting down at this laptop something that I really look forward to every day and have to admit to feeling delight when someone said the other day they were eagerly anticipating the next instalment one of the days that I was late posting.
This was first and foremost an experiment to see how I could make my life better but to share this journey, share the difference we can make ourselves to our lives, that’s my dream.
Having had two days feeling a bit down this week, worse maybe because I had been feeling so good. Today I felt so grateful to feel so good again,the hard days make the great ones even better. Plus it proved to me that I can turn it around.
Talking about proof, I have said before this is not about me proving that this works or about me being “right” it is up to everyone to make their own decision. All I know is what’s happening to me and it’s not to do with any external changes all I have done is focus on how I feel. I knew that it would have a positive effect but in such a short space of time to have experienced all I have is almost unbelievable. In days changes have occurred that I a few months ago never thought possible and even at the beginning of this I hoped would be possible after maybe months even years.
I’m laughing a lot lately. I just noticed it this evening that I keep hearing myself laughing. A good sound and a very good feeling.
“The greatest revolution in our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives” William James Philosopher & Psychologist (1842-1910)
No matter what is going on in your life you cannot change a situation or another person but you can always change how you feel.
One of the quickest ways for me was gratitude.
When you’re stuck in traffic and think you’re going to be late, worrying about a bill, annoyed with your boss or colleagues; by stopping for a moment and thinking of something that you have in your life to be grateful for it will change your feelings from bad to good. There is always something, the more you do it the more easily they will come.
Now on day 24 I find myself just writing a gratitude list in my head when I’m in a queue, out running, driving. Right now this laptop, my chair, the hot water bottle I’m holding, my mug of tea, chatting with the runners this evening, how good I’m feeling, getting to post this blog, retweets on twitter, Googlebox on in an hour…I could go on and on
We all have struggles some that seem bigger than others but if something makes you feel bad the feeling is the same regardless of the cause.
I have been feeling brilliant all day until this afternoon coming into the house from the supermarket, when no one leapt up to help me with the bags I could feel irritation creep in. Now that’s a really small thing but I was starting to feel bad.
I had a choice.
Stomp about putting the groceries away, sighing and tutting, getting myself more worked up?
Change the way I felt. Take a minute think about all the good things in my life?
Well Rule #5 Be aware of negativity in my thoughts and conversations so I went with the second one, thought about how grateful I was to have groceries to put away, a fridge to put them in, a family to feed.
That simple. Irritation gone.
My Gratitude list is stuck on my bedroom wall and I write on it first thing each morning before I do anything else, at first I set myself to six a day but now I just write as many as I want sometimes more sometimes less and I add to it throughout the day. I try not to repeat too much if I can but anything goes really.
If I’m thankful for it at that moment it's on the list.
Even just reading it makes me feel good and typing it out below made me smile. It is in no order of preference so please if you are a Doctor don’t take offence by being only one place above dry socks, or my parents who on the list are below cat litter!
Since the 4th of February I have and am grateful for……..
My warm house
Lilly the cat
Dinner with friends
My voice (I lost it!!)
Running on the canal
Jess & Leon’s school
Washing up liquid
Present of a necklace
New Runclub groups
My sister Rachael
Lights at Shamrocks
The way I am feeling now
Donating to charity
Afternoon spent with my family
Fun size mars bars
Singing in the shower
Every experience of my life so far
Waking up excited today
The fantastic branding on my page
Weighing more today but not caring that I weigh more
Deep tissue massage
A great night’s sleep
Making pancakes for kids
Rest and relaxation
Hot water bottles
Lemon and honey
Quakers this morning
All I’m learning
Being so warm I didn’t know it was snowy/frosty until I opened the curtains
Rain holding off at runclub
All the choices I have
Hugging my children
Having no physical pain
You, thank you for reading.