Friday, 27 February 2015

Day 24 of 182. Thankyou.


Day 24

Friday 27th February

 

24 days in. I can’t quite believe it.

 I am finding the process of sitting down at this laptop something that I really look forward to every day and have to admit to feeling delight when someone said the other day they were eagerly anticipating the next instalment one of the days that I was late posting.

 This was first and foremost an experiment to see how I could make my life better but to share this journey, share the difference we can make ourselves to our lives, that’s my dream.

Having had two days feeling a bit down this week, worse maybe because I had been feeling so good. Today I felt so grateful to feel so good again,the hard days make the great ones even better. Plus it proved to me that I can turn it around.

Talking about proof, I have said before this is not about me proving that this works or about me being “right” it is up to everyone to make their own decision. All I know is what’s happening to me and it’s not to do with any external changes all I have done is focus on how I feel. I knew that it would have a positive effect but in such a short space of time to have experienced all I have is almost unbelievable. In days changes have occurred that I a few months ago never thought possible and even at the beginning of this I hoped would be possible after maybe months even years.

I’m laughing a lot lately. I just noticed it this evening that I keep hearing myself laughing. A good sound and a very good feeling.

 

“The greatest revolution in our generation is the discovery that human beings, by changing the inner attitudes of their minds, can change the outer aspects of their lives” William James Philosopher & Psychologist (1842-1910)

 

No matter what is going on in your life you cannot change a situation or another person but you can always change how you feel.

One of the quickest ways for me was gratitude.

 

When you’re stuck in traffic and think you’re going to be late, worrying about a bill, annoyed with your boss or colleagues; by stopping for a moment and thinking of something that you have in your life to be grateful for it will change your feelings from bad to good. There is always something, the more you do it the more easily they will come.

Now on day 24 I find myself just writing a gratitude list in my head when I’m in a queue, out running, driving. Right now this laptop, my chair, the hot water bottle I’m holding, my mug of tea, chatting with the runners this evening, how good I’m feeling, getting to post this blog, retweets on twitter, Googlebox on in an hour…I could go on and on

We all have struggles some that seem bigger than others but if something makes you feel bad the feeling is the same regardless of the cause.

I have been feeling brilliant all day until this afternoon coming into the house from the supermarket, when no one leapt up to help me with the bags I could feel irritation creep in. Now that’s a really small thing but I was starting to feel bad.

 I had a choice.

Stomp about putting the groceries away, sighing and tutting, getting myself more worked up?

Or

Change the way I felt. Take a minute think about all the good things in my life?

 

Well Rule #5 Be aware of negativity in my thoughts and conversations so I went with the second one, thought about how grateful I was to have groceries to put away, a fridge to put them in, a family to feed.

That simple. Irritation gone.

 

My Gratitude list is stuck on my bedroom wall and I write on it first thing each morning before I do anything else, at first I set myself to six a day but now I just write as many as I want sometimes more sometimes less and I add to it throughout the day. I try not to repeat too much if I can but anything goes really.

 If I’m thankful for it at that moment it's on the list.

Even just reading it makes me feel good and typing it out below made me smile. It is in no order of preference so please if you are a Doctor don’t take offence by being only one place above dry socks, or my parents who on the list are below cat litter!

 

Since the 4th of February I have and am grateful for……..

 

My warm house

Lilly the cat

Christian

Jessica

Leon

Porridge

Coffee

The Secret

Music

My health

Toothpaste

My phone

Laptop

My job

Clothes

Kitchen Table

Running water

Feeling happy

Fridge

Shopping voucher

Amber Dawn

Runclub

Petrol

Blog

Leon’s chats

Runners

Vision board

Dinner with friends

Duvets

Pillows

Taxis

Sleep

My voice (I lost it!!)

Running on the canal

Washing machine

Aunt Fiona

Gym

Jess & Leon’s school

Bin Collection

Washing up liquid

Present of a necklace

Cat litter

Clean clothes

New Runclub groups

My Mum

My Dad

 

My sister Rachael

Lip balm

4fit class

Lights at Shamrocks

Shamrocks track

Sight

Shoes

Inspiration

Birds singing

The secret

Books

Moisturizer

The way I am feeling now

Donating to charity

Afternoon spent with my family

Carpets

Soup

Fun size mars bars

Radiators

Emails

Water

Rain

Sports therapist

Singing in the shower

Kirby grips

Every experience of my life so far

Make up

Mirrors

Electricity

Hearing

Waking up excited today

Supermarkets

Roads

Bookshops

Text messages

Facebook

The fantastic branding on my page

Sunrise

Being alive

Feeling loved

Feeling love

Friendships

Weighing more today but not caring that I weigh more

The past

The present

Future

Deep tissue massage

ITunes

IPod

A great night’s sleep

Making pancakes for kids

Trains

Nights away

Rest and relaxation

Hotel showers

Me

My health

Talking

Sleeping

Food

Warm beds

Towels

The secret

Red wine

My perfume

Hot water bottles

Lemon and honey

My mum

Quiet

Quakers this morning

All I’m learning

Being so warm I didn’t know it was snowy/frosty until I opened the curtains

Rain holding off at runclub

People’s messages

All the choices I have

The future

Hugging my children

Hero

Having no physical pain

Doctors

Dry socks

The blog

Feeling happiness

The blog

Excitement

Makeup
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